benda and her wonderful life

hijab-photoshoot

2011-12-08T07:09:00.000-08:00

I had hijab-photoshoot with my friends. and we look soooo beautiful. wearing hijab isn't always boring-style, right? :))))

me wearing :
choco-hoodie-dress & inner by Karita moslem square

grey shoes by charles & keith
net-top by sylvi's

belt unbranded

changing

2011-12-08T06:13:00.000-08:00

we must accept that everytime people changes, and so do I. I try to change my introvert personality become not-too-introvert hehe :p
not only me but also my blog. too many spamming here so i deleted some of my stories hihihih

oyaa, i like typing 'hihihih' 'mihihih' 'meheheh' idk why but it sounds weird just like a ghost. i'm just like it *not too important*

before and after

2011-11-24T07:30:00.000-08:00

this is me before wearing hijab. my messy-hair heheheh btw i cut my fringe by myself :p

TADAAA this is me now :))) actually i wear glasses but sometimes if i take pictures i put it down because it reflectives hihih the glasses is sooo old but i love it!

proud

2011-09-08T23:39:00.000-07:00

begitu ngeliat lagi untuk kesekian kali gatau kenapa yang terbesit malah "langgeng yaa" . ini nih yang selalu bikin aku bangga sama diri sendiri :))
walopun masih pegimanaaaa gitu hahhahaha tapi nggak papa nggak papa. saya orang hebat kok 8)

2011-08-04T10:01:00.001-07:00

Okeeeeey. I know we used to do that things. Used to. USED TO. And let's be honest. I wanna make it clear. And you don't make an effort. So, I started thinking what should I do? And after I found the answer and even I've planned for it. It's just too late.
It's ok. Just remember that you'll be regret. YOU NOT ME!

Look at me! I gotta be soooooo mean for blaming all these things to you. Bcs I just have no choice.
This is the fact. You hurt me successfully. But, I do not hate you at all. I'm just acting like I do. I don't wanna seem so weak. I really wanna be friends but I don't know how to start talking to you. everything's just too fast for me. So random

is it too late or is it too early?

2011-07-21T08:17:00.000-07:00

what we are? please tell me what we are
okaaay, I think.... *hening*

:3

2011-07-21T07:11:00.001-07:00

"waktu di bali aku ajak adek2ku sm temennya ke club"
"hah? gila"
"gakpapa lah. kan mereka belum pernah kesana jadi ya aku ajak aja, cuma mau kasih liat aja. kan daripada mereka kesana diem2"
"ooh ya sih bener juga. eh aku juga belum pernah lho"
"kalo kamu jangan nah"
"yaah mereka boleh, kok aku enggak? kasih liat aja lah aku"
"jangan nah. kamu ntar aku ajak ke Mekah aja"
"... *blushing "

seriously, that's the sweetest thing I've ever heard :3 hehehe but, I know that life is life and it can't be sure of something, just like now :')

all about my blog

2010-12-16T07:52:00.000-08:00

beberapa orang mungkin ngebuat blog yg buagus dg gambar lucu2 disana sini. Ada punya kegunaan dan tujuan masing2. Ada yang buat blog yg berguna untuk masyarakat. Ada yang buat postingan semenarik mungkin biar followersnya banyak, biar eksis mungkin. Bagus sih tujuannya, membantu banget. Sayangnya aku ga bisa mbuat gituan, ga pandai merangkai kata2 aku iki. Jadilah blog saya standart nuotok jeduok tanpa hiasan tanpa anyelir tanpa melati *halah
lagian aku ga terlalu suka dg hiasan2, aku lebih suka sesuatu yg polos tp warna warni .lucuuuuu
lagipula blog ini dibuat untuk diri saya sendiri bukan untuk orang lain :)) yaah maklum, aku susah cerita ke orang soalnya, dan kalo bisa ga ada yg baca malah lebih baik .malu soalnya hahah
itu saja alasannya knp blog ini isinya curhatan tok :))

2009-09-17T09:40:00.000-07:00

the buttons on my phone are worn thin

i dont think that i knew
the chaos i was getting in
but i've broken all my promises to you
i've broken all my promises to you

why do you do this to me?
why do you do this so easily?
you make it hard to smile because
you make it hard to breathe
why do you do this to me? me

a frozen lines a single tear
is harder than i ever feared
and you were left feeling so alone
because these days aren't easy
like they have been once before
these days aren't easy anymore

why do you do this to me?
why do you do this so easily?
you make it hard to smile because
you make it hard to breathe
why do you do this to me?
to me, to me, to me

i should've known this wsn't real
and fought it off, fought to feel
wht matters most, everything that you feel
while listening to every word that i sing
i promise you i will bring you home
and i will bring you home

why do you do this to me?
why do you do this so easily?
you make it hard to smile because
you make it hard to breathe
why do you do this to me?

why do you do this to me?
why do you do this so easily?
you make it hard to smile because
you make it hard to breathe
why do you do this to me?
to me, to me, to me

that's what friends are for :)

2009-06-19T21:05:00.000-07:00

and i never thought i'd feel this way
and as far as i'm concerned
i'm glad to got the chance to say
that i do believe, iloveyou

and if i should ever go away
well then close your eyes and try
to feel the way we do today
and then if you can remember

keep smiling keep shining
knowing you can always count on me for sure
that's what friends are for
for good times and bad times
i'll be on your side, forever more
that's what friends are for

well you came in loving me
and now there's so much more i see
and so by the way i thank you

oh and then for the times
when we're apart
well then close your eyes
and know the words are coming from my heart
and then if you can remember

keep smiling keep shining
knowing you can always count on me for sure
that's what friends are for
for good times and bad times
i'll be on your side, forever more
that's what friends are for

keep smiling keep shining
knowing you can always count on me for sure
that's what friends are for
for good times and bad times
i'll be on your side, forever more
that's what friends are for

keep smiling keep shining
knowing you can always count on me for sure
that's what friends are for
for good times and bad times
i'll be on your side, forever more
that's what friends are for

olah raga bersama pak gogot aw aw

2009-06-16T01:51:00.000-07:00

waaah senangnyaaa foto bersama pak gogot tercintaaaa (hueek) wekekekek
eh eh itu habis metani pak gogot lo huahaha (serius nih)
pas tes voli gitu, trus iseng2 titis bilang ke bapaknya kalo banyak rambut putihnya, eeh malah disuruh metani ckck (metani : mencabuti rambut putih)
aku mah nggak ikutan metani . maleeees pol kalo dsrh metani, cuma ikutan foto doang :p
pak gogot i love you . eh we love you ding hahaha
tapi aku kok kena remed siih paaak? ah bapaknya ini ah
beli buku kan mahal paaak
tak belikan buku d semarang aja ya pak ya (padalan gak tau rupanya jalan semarang itu gimana)
wes ah yang penting pak gogot tetep cute sweety dan cool abis kayak siren sungkar huahahahahahahahaha
ampun paaaaak :p

i wish

2009-06-05T00:22:00.001-07:00

lagi pengen banyak hal aku
huuuh
pengen mobil pengen hape pengen baju pengen kacamata pengen blanja, yampuuun
ngmg2 soal mobil, ini cerita pas aku pulang dari rumah laven habis ngerjain laporan student day, mama njemput aku barengan sama vela dijemput mbaknya + yunita dan yub pulang juga
abis say goodbye, aku dan mama terlibat pembicaraan

mama : itu tadi sapa mbak?
aku : yang mana ma?
mama : yang naik crv itulo
aku : ooh, itu yunita sama yub maa, opoo?
mama : dijemput ta?
aku : enggak, yunita bawa mbl dewe
mama : oooh . sekola juga bawa dewe?
aku : emboh, kadang2 . lek laven bawa altis dewe maa
mama : haha . kalo yg jazz itu sapa? juga bawa dewe?
aku : itu vela, enggak dia sm mbaknya . tapi palingan abis ini bawa dewe, mbaknya uda lulus soalnya
mama : lha kamu mbak? hahaha
aku : .... (merengut bentar trus berpikir nakal)
makanya taa aku bolehin bawa mbl sendiri. aku beliin peugeot dong maa
mama : peugeot? km mau ta?
aku : YA MAU LAAH
mama : hahaha iya iya mbak
aku : kapan ma?
mama : kapan kapan ae yo mbak hehehe
aku : EALA (cegek setengah mati)
mama : kan kamu belom punya sim sm ktp
aku : yaaah (kecewa berat men)
beberapa saat kami terdiam, lalu aku mulai ngmg lagi
aku : wes aku tak naek revoku aja ya ma ya, boleh ya ya ya kan aku uda 16 taun ma (sambil mbayangin aku naek revo biruku + helm doraemon, aw aw mupeng)
mama : bisa ta kamu mbak?
aku : enggak (jroot ! )
mama : hahaha laiya, gitu kok mau naek revo
aku : yaa blajar dulu
mama : yowes ntar sampe rumah blajaro mundurin majuin revonya, sama blajar nyuci revonya dulu
aku : weeeeeek malese
mama : lho blajarnya gitu dulu, ntar lak lama lama bisa
aku : (bilang ae nggak boleh maa) emoh
mama : yaweeees
aku : ........
beberapa hari kemudian
aku : ma nggak jadi peugeot deh ma
mama : lo kenapa?
aku : aku maunya picanto kuning aja
mama: picanto? punya kia itu
aku : iya emang . picanto ya ma ya
mama : iyaa, ntar yaa
aku : oke aku tunggu
malemnya
papa : ben kamu minta picanto kuning?
aku : IYA PA IYA . ayo beliin
papa : iya . tapi satu kamu harus refleks, org nyetir mbl itu harus refleks . dua km hrs uda tegen dulu, biar tegen ayo renang
aku : beuuuuh
papa : lho iya, harus rutin renang
aku : zzz iya iya
papa : skg kamu fokus uas dulu aja, ntar abis uas ayo ke kia
aku : horeeee iyaaaa
papa : tapi nggak boleh bawa dulu
aku : yaah
papa : km lo belom punya sim sm ktp
aku : hmm
papa : ntar pas liburan blajar nyetir sama renang ehm RENANG
aku : iyadeeh
papa : eh tapi kok kuninh sih?
aku : kan lucu paa, mobilnya kayak tikus gitu kuning lagi
papa : hmm yaweslaah tesera kamu

hahahahahahahaha tinggal menunggu waktu sodara, senangnyaaaaa
tapi beberapa hari yang lalu, aku mikir lagi
kalo aku minta beliin mobil skg trus kalo hapeku rusak gimana dong? udah diambang kematian ini . udah uzur hapeku
masa iya aku kudu minta hape + mobil? kasian mampap huhu nggak tega
lagian aku pengen kuliah fk
mana tadi aku baca koran, duitnya fk unair 150 juta pek, gilaaa kasian hiks hiks
maaf ya ma pa huhuhu
jadi aku harus gimana?
merelakan mobilku kah? ato hapeku? ato kuliahku?
huaaaaa nggak rela semuaaa
kalo hape nggak papa wes, aku pasti bisa bertahan dengan hapeku sayang. amiiin
tapi kalo mobil jngan dong, aku butuuh
apalagi kuliah, huhuhu jangan sampe deh
masa cita citaku ilang gitu aja huaaaa gak mau pokonya gak mau titik

well oke sudah aku putuskan
jadi prioritas pertama adalah kuliah .
ayo ben nabung buat kuliah, jangan foya foya terus . benda pasti bisa :D semangat !
prioritas kedua adalah mobiil heheh
sabaar yaa picantoku sayaaaang hehehe
dan dengan berat hati prioritas ketiga adalah hape
bertahanlah ul sayang, kita pasti bisa menghadapinya bersama sama huahaha

semoga benar benar menjadi pilihan yang tepat dan tidak menyusahkan mampap (walopun saya tau ini pasti nyusahin mampap) amiiiiin

ngumpulin cd kosong aja ya ya ya

2009-05-28T22:17:00.000-07:00

hari ini banyak anak2 yg syuting . ngerjain tugas dramanya pak tres
aku? cuma ngeliatin mreka yg lg bingung2 mau brangkat kerumah serin kerumah vela
sampe bingung tadi mau ngapain
akirnya ngendon di kelompoknya mreka, sampe dkirain aku kelompoknya hehe
habis aku males pol ngrjainnya, useless ah
lagian klompokku juga pada ajaib anaknya
gimana enggak, cuma klompokku satu2nya yg anggotanya cewek cowok nyampur, susah ngaturnya . apalagi ank cowoknya ehm well ya gitu
ini dia kelompokku

abidin kusuma nugraha
alivianda zahrina saraya
benda alifianti suwito
budi harwinda
dhika wahyu oktaviani
dwi ayu rakhmawati
ganang krisnanto
gullyawan rooseno
rizky ramadhani

haha metal smua, pengennya sih ngumpulin cd kosong aja
pak tres ae, palingan gk d liat
bidin uda stuju, tp dia nyuruh aku dewean yg ngumpulin . yo males yooo
budi malah bilang 'yowes cd ne tak isi bokep ae'
hahaha gak mbayangin kalo pak tres d kasi cd yg isinya bokep wakakakkakakak
jadi gimana yaa? cd kosong aja ya teman teman ya ya ya males syuting nih

postingan petama haha

2009-05-27T05:10:00.000-07:00

waah akirnyaa posting juga hehe
padahal ini blog uda lama banget buatnya, tapi nggak keurus sampe lupa password (apa sih yg aku nggak lupa?)
hmm okeee
posting apaan ya hmm
udah ah gini aja hehe